As I write this, I’m holding back tears and my heart feels like a twisted knot of Christmas ribbon because I’m about to do something that brings me a lot of sadness, something I never thought I would do, especially at this time of year: say goodbye to Ate by Ate. My beloved Ate by Ate, the little corner of the web that I called my own for the last 5 years, will no longer be updated from this day forward. I actually had intentions of posting the cute photos I took last week during a trip to one of my favourite bakeries, Yummy Stuff, but it just so happens that I’ve completely run out of space on my blog and can’t post any more photos unless I purchase another upgrade so I’ve taken the liberty of posting a handful on Ate by Ate’s twitter instead. I don’t even have enough MB to post one last photo here so it makes it all the more bittersweet with this final post saying goodbye.
I’m SO sorry for being away and for not keeping up for so long. For those of you who have followed me on this journey, you know that things in my life have been rough and I hoped so much that things would look up so that I could come back and post with some sense of normalcy and positivity, but unfortunately…things have changed in my life and not for the better. So I’ve made the painful decision to put Ate by Ate to bed, to lovingly say goodbye to everything it has meant to me for what feels like a lifetime.
Throughout this painful phase in my life, I’ve lost a lot of hope and a lot of faith, but Ate by Ate has always been about happiness and seeing the good, so I want to try my best to make this a bittersweet goodbye instead of one filled with rants. As one of the characters in an old Sweet Valley novel said (if you’re curious, it was Nick to Jessica in SVU #47), “Leave me with your love, not your anger”. So that’s what I want to do here.
Thank you so much to everyone for their love and support for the blog from the very start, it means more to me than you’ll ever know. I’m happy that you liked my work enough to read, comment, and make it a part of your foodie world and for some of you even a part of your daily lives because even though it doesn’t have all the bells and whistles, I’m really proud of what I’ve been able to accomplish because of it. Which is why Ate by Ate will simply stay here in this corner of the interwebs. It won’t be updated and it’ll be dormant but I’ve invested so much of my heart and soul in it that I don’t want to take it down. It’ll be here for those who just want to look up a cookie recipe, look at pictures or read old posts. Maybe someday blogging will be a part of my life again. Because I love the work I do and when you truly love something it never leaves you and is always a part of you.
Ate by Ate has brought me more joy than I could have ever imagined (oh god, now I’m really crying). It has brought me happiness, inspiration, confidence, strength, comfort, a sense of belonging, a place to be myself, and above all else, pure love. It has seen me through grad school, the trials and tribulations of writing my wretched Master’s thesis, making friends, finding and being embraced by a whole community of foodies, finding my first job out of school, losing that first job, finding the love of my life and losing the love of my life. I took a million photos, scrapbooked to my heart’s content, ate the most delicious things, learned and grew, and spent hours, days, weeks, months and years developing content that I thought people would like. I gave Ate by Ate everything I had and I will miss it so much.
I’m not the best at ending things, but I’ll make this last part short and sweet: goodbye, you were loved and appreciated and you’ll be so greatly missed.